Ep. 205 "Some Patience" (A rare movie review from your host)

[00:00:00] And all I really want is some patience, a way to calm the angry voice.

[00:00:12] Hey diary listeners it's actually Sunday.

[00:00:19] I'm recording this on Sunday because I have a busy couple days coming up and the subject

[00:00:28] of this podcast or this diary entry this week is to talk about and I'm never this person

[00:00:35] but I am compelled.

[00:00:39] I am actually this Tuesday when this podcast is going to air, I'm going to see Caprini

[00:00:46] not Caprini, Caprini b, brain, Caprini for the second time.

[00:00:55] So I wanted to meet with you guys and tell you about it and assure you that is the best

[00:01:05] film I've ever seen.

[00:01:08] And I don't say that lightly.

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[00:01:25] That was a little bit of my Alannas Morissette homage.

[00:01:36] I've been rocking out to her lately.

[00:01:39] I don't know if you guys hear it my voice, I have a bit of a, I don't know if it's cold,

[00:01:44] a cold or allergies but it is affecting my voice because it's affecting my throat and

[00:01:52] my sinuses and my lungs I guess a little bit.

[00:01:55] It's probably allergies because they feel pretty good.

[00:01:59] I'm just congested and ate this the season, everything's budding and I'm really happy

[00:02:06] about it.

[00:02:08] It's beautiful outside.

[00:02:11] Spring has sprung.

[00:02:13] I do think but the, I don't know, Alannas Morissette is speaking to me right now, the Jagged

[00:02:21] Little Pill, the album.

[00:02:23] Such an epic good album.

[00:02:26] If you are of the Gen Z persuasion and beyond, I highly recommend it if you do not know that

[00:02:37] album of Alannas Morissette is phenomenal.

[00:02:46] I don't know, it was, it's really great because it's, I guess people would call it angry

[00:02:56] girl music.

[00:02:59] You can tell that she's been through something and you can tell that she is a very passionate

[00:03:04] person who loves very deeply and who's gotten raked across the coals and burnt.

[00:03:13] So it's got a lot of depth of emotion in that and just such great poetic songs and

[00:03:22] singable songs, like songs that you can remember forever.

[00:03:27] I think if there was one album that I could really pull from the pantheon or annals of my

[00:03:40] youth and say that this one was the one that got me, it would be Alannas Morissette's

[00:03:48] Jagged Little Pill.

[00:03:50] Just because it was, I don't know, it's so romantic, it's so deep and I grew up with

[00:03:58] a Alannas Morissette.

[00:04:00] She was on, you can't do that on television.

[00:04:04] She got slimed regularly and so I grew up with her.

[00:04:07] So I've been jamming out to her lately.

[00:04:09] I don't know if it's just the vibe, but today's topic is Cabrini which I'm amazed how many

[00:04:17] people have not, don't even know about the film.

[00:04:22] But I guess that's just because of who it's actually created by.

[00:04:25] It's created by Angel Studios which I think deserves its own kind of observance.

[00:04:33] Angel Studios is basically a crowd-funded studio space that really needs the public square

[00:04:45] to fund its movies.

[00:04:48] And it is pretty much a big FU to the Hollywood crowd.

[00:04:57] And what it does is empower the viewer and the actual cinema owner who is kind of at

[00:05:05] the mercy of these big movie companies that pretty much dictate what gets made and what

[00:05:11] doesn't.

[00:05:13] And so Angel Studios really aims to put out integral films that uplift us and more

[00:05:20] than that go back to a time where films were made to help bring some moral formation

[00:05:33] to people.

[00:05:34] And I know people cringe when they hear that but it was really important to me growing

[00:05:43] up to be able to have art outside of myself, outside of my experience to inspire my life.

[00:05:58] And the late 80s, early 90s and into the 90s and even a little bit of the 2000s were

[00:06:05] packed full of inspirational films that really I think taught you how to be a good person

[00:06:14] and taught you how to get at life.

[00:06:18] And, you know, just some really, really good values.

[00:06:28] I don't know how to put it.

[00:06:31] It just taught you that it was worth it to be a certain kind of person.

[00:06:37] And you know, however much people might not feel that that's the truth, I do think that

[00:06:43] that's the truth.

[00:06:44] I think that this life can conspire to get you down if you let it.

[00:06:51] And I think that there's lots of actors out there that will seek to lessen your shine

[00:06:57] certainly if you're trying to go after your passion in this world.

[00:07:00] There's going to be that.

[00:07:03] And you know, it's been a long time ever since I feel like, I mean honestly it was a little

[00:07:10] bit before 2020 but you ever since 2020, it's been pretty hard to find an inspiring film,

[00:07:21] something that just made me want to live and want to give a crap.

[00:07:31] You know, just to segue just for a second before Caprini, Cabrini, sorry I keep saying

[00:07:38] it wrong.

[00:07:39] This is the reason why I switched from learning Italian to learning French.

[00:07:44] The subtleties.

[00:07:45] I'm still bad at French but at least I can pronounce it better.

[00:07:50] Anyway, just to segue for a second, I had a friend of mine kind of come back in my life

[00:07:58] after a while and she was kind of curious about what was going on with me.

[00:08:02] Optically, I think that she was envying me a little bit because I think that the prospectus

[00:08:09] was that I didn't give a shit.

[00:08:12] And there was this huge fuck it vibe.

[00:08:18] And actually at the point that she was coming back into my life, that point in my life

[00:08:26] had ended.

[00:08:28] That was effectively the end of the fuck it era of Amy.

[00:08:34] Now perhaps before that there was a very large fuck it vibe because there was a lot of

[00:08:43] fuck it, a lot of fuck it, fuck you, I'm out.

[00:08:47] And I pretty much did that to a lot of people.

[00:08:52] That was my way.

[00:08:54] I'm going to call your bluff and I'm going to do what I feel I need to do.

[00:09:01] And I got pretty far with that.

[00:09:05] I must say.

[00:09:08] But then it came down to things that were I think wildly outside of my control.

[00:09:18] And I think that ultimately I'm a person who cares very deeply and I value things very

[00:09:28] much.

[00:09:30] So it really didn't coincide with wanting anything.

[00:09:36] I think that if you have a fuck it value system, then you have to not really care like genuinely

[00:09:45] not care, like be nihilistic to the maxed to the max.

[00:09:52] And I just don't, I don't put any distinctions on nihilism.

[00:10:01] I think it's generally just nothing matters.

[00:10:05] And if nothing matters then we're stuck in this relativism state that makes everything

[00:10:11] frustrating and convoluted.

[00:10:14] And there's no order or sense to anything.

[00:10:18] And maybe that brings comfort to some people, but I'm getting tired folks.

[00:10:25] I guess that's where it's at is that I'm just getting tired.

[00:10:29] And I want things to make sense and I want people to reach their best selves.

[00:10:40] So it is all I ever wanted for myself.

[00:10:44] And a lot of the actions that I took in lieu of kind of walking away from people, I think

[00:10:54] was mostly me separating myself from a lot of abuse and then getting therapy and doing

[00:11:03] a lot of work to reunite me with parts of my life that I had challenges with but came

[00:11:13] back with very good skills and tools and knowledge and re-united with a lot of things that

[00:11:23] I desperately wanted but that I had to radically separate myself from in order to come back

[00:11:32] the way I did strong and confident and full of what I knew I was and what I was capable

[00:11:38] of.

[00:11:40] So I understand the need for radical separation, cutting people off, setting boundaries.

[00:11:50] In fact, and boundaries are very important.

[00:11:54] I always have had a problem with them.

[00:11:58] I guess that's what I'm trying to say is that I've always struggled with boundaries and

[00:12:09] just a...

[00:12:10] I mean, that's a short and long of it.

[00:12:17] So in terms of this friend, she basically said, you know, Amy, I just think I want to

[00:12:25] say fuck it and throw my hands in there and walk away from everything.

[00:12:29] This was a friend that had been married for a while, she had a couple of kids and I just

[00:12:36] looked at her and I said, you know, I want to tell you that there is no strength in

[00:12:42] fuck it.

[00:12:44] Fuck it is not caring.

[00:12:45] There's no strength in that.

[00:12:47] Optically, it looks strong because it looks like you can't be hurt but you can and very

[00:12:53] few people are genuinely like that and the people who are like that don't really garnish

[00:12:59] much respect at the end of the day because they are able to do things that are so low

[00:13:06] and so below what anybody would deem, okay?

[00:13:11] Because they genuinely don't care.

[00:13:13] They don't have the capacity to care.

[00:13:19] And that doesn't make them strong.

[00:13:22] It just makes them empty and I told her that I think the real strength in this world

[00:13:30] is caring deeply, adamantly about what you care about and saying fuck you to anybody

[00:13:42] who tells you what to care about.

[00:13:47] And so that kind of leads into Cabrini.

[00:13:54] I'm kind of upset that I never knew about this woman, she's a real person.

[00:13:59] I don't want to give too much away about this film because I really want everybody to go

[00:14:05] see it.

[00:14:07] What I want to do is kind of outline some things that I think it does and then wait

[00:14:16] and see if anybody else feels the same way.

[00:14:21] But it's taken a long time for a film to inspire me like that.

[00:14:29] And that was something that I will give away and something that I think anybody could

[00:14:32] look up about this person.

[00:14:35] Francesca, I believe what was her middle name?

[00:14:40] Francesca Cabrini was a nun.

[00:14:44] And I think early 1900s, late 1800s.

[00:14:50] And she was Italian and she wanted to build an empire of hope.

[00:14:59] And I can say that that is accomplished and it's still happening today because this film

[00:15:07] was made and I'm so grateful.

[00:15:11] A little mad that it took me almost 43 years to know who this person was.

[00:15:17] But I'm so happy that I have so much time ahead of me to kind of look to her as an example.

[00:15:27] You know, this was a dynamic person.

[00:15:34] So a few things.

[00:15:35] I think the biggest vein, my mom and I kind of got into it a little bit today because

[00:15:41] I'm sick.

[00:15:42] I'm going to take a few sips of tea.

[00:15:44] I hope you guys don't mind.

[00:15:48] But my mom, she was pointing out some things about it that I think y'all will note.

[00:16:00] Keep in mind that it's historic.

[00:16:03] So what you're seeing is something that happened in the past and things were very different

[00:16:10] in the past.

[00:16:13] Something that most people don't know about our history is that Italian immigrants

[00:16:19] were terribly treated here in the Americas.

[00:16:25] One of the biggest, if no, the biggest lynching that ever happened was against Italian immigrants.

[00:16:33] So it is a real thing about how people felt about Italians and their tenacity to come here

[00:16:46] and make their way is huge.

[00:16:50] So we have a lot going on in this country right now, a lot of heated debates about immigration.

[00:16:58] One thing that I hope everybody sees about this film is that this is at a different time

[00:17:06] and these people were there legally.

[00:17:09] They did genuinely want to immigrate and America was very much so forming in many ways.

[00:17:19] And there were opulent people, you'll see that too, of course.

[00:17:24] There was a lot of industry already, but we were still very much so birthing as a place.

[00:17:37] You know, a lot of the people who were wealthy were immigrants.

[00:17:42] And so there's just such a huge message of never let excuses get in the way of doing

[00:17:53] the right thing, ever, ever.

[00:18:00] You know we don't know how much time we have on this earth and I think about that now.

[00:18:14] I think about it so much.

[00:18:16] And as I was jamming out to Alanna Smooreset, a very similar timeline of song came out.

[00:18:26] It was Tracy Chapman's change.

[00:18:29] Another good song.

[00:18:30] Definitely recommend it.

[00:18:33] But in that song she says, Tracy says, you know, if you were to die today or if you were

[00:18:40] to see God or see the love of God or see love in God, I forget that quote which change.

[00:18:49] You know like throughout it all, if you were to assess everything in your life, would

[00:18:57] you change?

[00:18:58] Would you do the same thing or would you change?

[00:19:02] And I think it's really hard when you're young because you don't have much behind you

[00:19:09] and you're acting from such a raw passion because you don't know.

[00:19:14] All you can do is look around you and hope that the people around you are trying to help

[00:19:19] you and I get that.

[00:19:21] I, this is my youth and you know there are some things when I look back I'm like man,

[00:19:33] wonder what it would have been like if I had done this.

[00:19:35] It's not necessarily regret because I'm really happy where I am but I have room to wonder

[00:19:43] and I definitely have had many a haze in my life about certain things that people were

[00:19:52] trying to give me or show me, you know, a Lannis Morissette song, ironic is, you know the

[00:20:00] good advice that you didn't take, lots of that, lots of that.

[00:20:08] And Cabrini, I mean of course it's a movie but this showcase a person that did wonders

[00:20:22] when everything in the world was against her and in the face of the highest of the high,

[00:20:32] she kept her head up high and basically said the world is too small for what I have planned.

[00:20:42] And I just, it lit a fire in me folks that I am so grateful for.

[00:20:51] And she honestly said and I'm sure it's been said before but it just caught me here.

[00:21:00] And I needed her to say it but it's my new favorite phrase and I think I'm going to try

[00:21:08] to not try, do.

[00:21:10] I think I'm going to put it on a shirt and I think I'm going to wear it and I think I'm

[00:21:17] going to put it on our store, the apprenticeship diary store because it's my new favorite phrase

[00:21:24] and I think it's worth having everywhere.

[00:21:28] And basically what it is is you can serve your weakness or you can serve your purpose

[00:21:35] and I just think that's phenomenal.

[00:21:39] And for anybody out there that's struggling and trying and clawing and everything

[00:21:45] and it just feels so hard, just please, please keep going.

[00:21:51] Please keep going.

[00:21:54] I put out, I think I put it out on the stories from the apprenticeship diaries recently

[00:22:00] and I can put it in on the highlights.

[00:22:04] There's a famous painting called Checkmate.

[00:22:07] And I don't know if they changed the name but they needed to because the story goes that

[00:22:12] this painting was hanging up and it's a painting of the devil apparently beating a man

[00:22:17] in chess.

[00:22:19] And in the background is kind of, she looks kind of solemn, she he I don't know, looks

[00:22:27] kind of solemn but tentative and kind of concerned angel in the background.

[00:22:36] And apparently there was a chess world champion going through a tour of the museum when this

[00:22:45] painting was sussed out and kind of reestablished in the public view but this world champion

[00:22:57] in chess left his tour group as they moved throughout the museum and the guide comes

[00:23:08] back and is like dude you got to like, you got to stay with the tour.

[00:23:13] And he said you know I've been looking at this painting and I think you're either going

[00:23:18] to have to change the painting or change the name.

[00:23:22] And the tour guy was like, why is that?

[00:23:25] And he said well I've been staring at it for a while and the guy has one more move.

[00:23:33] He isn't beaten yet.

[00:23:36] He has a move.

[00:23:37] The king still has a move.

[00:23:41] And it's just such a beautiful illustration of our struggle.

[00:23:52] Yeah, the different things that we're going to have to get through in order to get to what

[00:23:59] we really really desire.

[00:24:04] And if we are willing to push, I just think that it's all going to be worth it and there's

[00:24:16] always one more move.

[00:24:19] And I think that you have to be very clear when it's over.

[00:24:28] And if you still got a little bit more, you just got to push.

[00:24:34] And that's what this woman, and honestly she didn't do it alone.

[00:24:39] They highlight her but there's people who help her along the way but she inspires all

[00:24:44] these people to come in and help her.

[00:24:48] And some reluctantly, some are very not that happy about it, but she can't be stopped.

[00:24:57] She can't be stopped.

[00:24:58] She's just so tenacious.

[00:25:00] And it's in a world where women weren't supposed to be like that.

[00:25:11] And as I was talking to my mom today, she was pointing on all the things like the birth

[00:25:15] of feminism and immigration and all this stuff.

[00:25:19] And I said, well, you can focus on those things.

[00:25:21] And I'm sure that they hit certain notes in us right now because of what's happening

[00:25:27] in our own country right now.

[00:25:30] And just what feminism has become at this point and just all these different things that

[00:25:35] we didn't think would happen based off of where we were then.

[00:25:41] And I say we as the universal we because I wasn't born until 1981.

[00:25:50] But I told my mom, she's telling me it was horrible for me as a woman being one of the

[00:25:56] first managers in giant food at the bakery.

[00:25:59] She's like the men treated me awfully.

[00:26:02] Everybody thought that I had to sleep with somebody to get to the top.

[00:26:06] She said, you know, the man that I worked under, he adored me but even him, he was just

[00:26:13] somebody who, you know, I always inappropriate, you know, doting on you and you would want

[00:26:20] to buy you outfits and things like that.

[00:26:24] It always was something other than letting you do the job and letting you do the job well.

[00:26:31] Like it was always about, you know, having a beautiful woman on your arm instead of

[00:26:38] seeing you for the quality is in content of your character and the work that you put

[00:26:43] in.

[00:26:45] And I told my mom, I said, you know, I wasn't in the most ardent point of this but I came

[00:26:49] in on the tail end and there was not a lot of ladies when I started tattooing at all.

[00:26:57] And I told my mom, I said, you know, around 2004ish, you know, it's a little late.

[00:27:06] And there certainly, there were women way, way more badass than me in a time where it was

[00:27:14] way not a lady's life at all for sure.

[00:27:19] I mean you got people in Coprini's time that were, you know, traveling with circuses

[00:27:26] that were completely covered in tattoos.

[00:27:28] So, you know, I'm not saying that I am in the dawning of like the female bad asser of

[00:27:36] tattooing but as far as tattooing, I was in a much more potent time where there was

[00:27:40] a lot less ladies in this industry and those notes were there.

[00:27:46] Oh, who did you sleep with?

[00:27:48] And there was suicide girls were a big thing and I used to think suicide girls were so

[00:27:55] great.

[00:27:56] I have a more, I'm sure not all of them were of this caliber but there was a lot of

[00:28:01] those girls that would sleep with people in order to get tattoos and would just hang around

[00:28:07] tattoo conventions and you know, generally be very, very annoying to the tattoo crowd

[00:28:15] in my opinion because they would just be gross.

[00:28:19] And for somebody like me who was interested in, you know, sleeping with a woman, dude,

[00:28:27] you're going to have to pay me.

[00:28:28] Like you're going to have to pay me and no, that's not going to be a payment.

[00:28:34] And you know, it just always was kind of gross to me.

[00:28:41] And you know, I'm, I've modeled nude.

[00:28:45] I've done all that kind of stuff.

[00:28:48] I've been in those realms but I think that there should be a, sorry everyone.

[00:28:58] Like I said, I don't know if it's allergies or what.

[00:29:04] Let me take a sip of this.

[00:29:08] It may or may not help.

[00:29:10] We'll see.

[00:29:11] Um, did it out?

[00:29:14] I'm sorry, it's like one of those moments where you're not sure.

[00:29:19] And raw to refined, right?

[00:29:23] Holy crap.

[00:29:25] Oh, I guess, I guess people who speak for a living don't, and they've got to be times

[00:29:33] where they're just like this on, on audio.

[00:29:37] Anyway, um, I've done it.

[00:29:41] In fact, I'm, I'm staring.

[00:29:44] As I'm looking up, I'm staring at a painting that I did in college of a very softic woman,

[00:29:54] lots of curves and lots of attitude.

[00:29:58] And I wish I remembered her name but I have this huge painting.

[00:30:02] It has to be, I think it's like five feet by three feet.

[00:30:08] It's big painting and naked as the day is long and I love this painting.

[00:30:15] I don't know if I ever named it.

[00:30:18] It's got a big like, it is an oriental rug.

[00:30:24] I think it's still okay to say oriental rug.

[00:30:26] That's what it is.

[00:30:27] It's an oriental rug.

[00:30:29] And there's like a little bit of a mirror in the background, but you don't see a reflection.

[00:30:35] I don't know.

[00:30:38] I do kind of regret the fact that I went so boldly green in the background.

[00:30:44] I'll have to, I'll have to send, I'll have to send through the picture because it's

[00:30:50] fucking Instagram and social media.

[00:30:53] I can't even appreciate good art, but I, I went really green for the background.

[00:31:04] And I think it was because my teacher was just annoying to me.

[00:31:07] He just wouldn't let me paint and he just always had to say something like, he's like,

[00:31:12] oh, you should really go off of like the red of her hair.

[00:31:16] She's like, it's everything's really warm so you should make the background like maybe green.

[00:31:20] Then I was like, oh, okay.

[00:31:22] And like I just, I was kind of like a FU.

[00:31:28] I remember when he met with my mother.

[00:31:30] He looked at her and he was like, your child's very stubborn.

[00:31:34] And my mom was like, what?

[00:31:37] My child's awesome.

[00:31:38] Like she's dedicated.

[00:31:41] She's a hard worker.

[00:31:42] But I was.

[00:31:43] I was very like it.

[00:31:45] My mom hadn't seen all of my colors yet.

[00:31:49] Green or otherwise, but I did.

[00:31:52] I had a very staunch like screw you man.

[00:31:55] Like just shut up and let me paint already.

[00:31:59] Like you can advise me, but stop telling me what to do.

[00:32:03] And he was a very big like, do this, do this.

[00:32:05] And you should do that.

[00:32:06] I just was like, fine.

[00:32:09] You want a green?

[00:32:10] I'll make it as green.

[00:32:12] And it is like green.

[00:32:13] It's not bad because she's poking out of it,

[00:32:16] but the wall was not green.

[00:32:18] It was white.

[00:32:21] I should have turned.

[00:32:22] I could still tone it down.

[00:32:23] But anyway, the reason why I have been naked in the past is

[00:32:30] because I owe a lot of people being naked to my art.

[00:32:36] And I owe a lot of alternative crazy things to my art.

[00:32:42] And so I get that space.

[00:32:45] And as long as it's artful, I'm for it.

[00:32:50] And I just, I think there's a distinction.

[00:32:58] Some of my stuff has gotten a little bit more into the sexual

[00:33:01] innuendo.

[00:33:03] There's that part of me as well.

[00:33:06] I think that's, there's that part of most people.

[00:33:09] But I really didn't enjoy that part

[00:33:13] because I didn't exploring it.

[00:33:16] I don't really feel like that's me.

[00:33:21] I think I like the romance of things a lot more.

[00:33:25] And I think I like the romance because it's what's inspiring.

[00:33:28] And so this movie is that.

[00:33:34] Not only that, but getting back to the whole

[00:33:38] sexual innuendo thing.

[00:33:41] You know, I'm so over Hollywood and this badass female thing

[00:33:51] in the way that they portray it.

[00:33:54] We are badass.

[00:33:56] That cannot be denied.

[00:34:02] I just, I think it's so evident from everything

[00:34:04] that we are that I don't need a

[00:34:08] Cleather suit running around kicking the shit out of bad guys.

[00:34:15] You know, thing about me.

[00:34:20] Nor nor do I think that that's where women are the strongest.

[00:34:24] We can be.

[00:34:26] It's not that we can't be.

[00:34:27] I just think that

[00:34:29] that's not

[00:34:32] our strength as much as what is exhibited in Cabrini.

[00:34:37] Cabrini shows what women are.

[00:34:40] We are

[00:34:44] I wear the reason why men don't just murder all the time.

[00:34:50] We're the reason why things

[00:34:54] soften.

[00:34:56] You know, we care in ways that need caring.

[00:35:02] You know, it's very specific and much different.

[00:35:07] And I just love that.

[00:35:11] There's so much strength in this person,

[00:35:16] even though she's frail and she's sick.

[00:35:19] And she is not in the in the high places at all,

[00:35:25] but her ability to lead

[00:35:29] is just incredible.

[00:35:31] It's incredible.

[00:35:33] And I just love every bit of this film.

[00:35:37] My God.

[00:35:38] My God.

[00:35:46] Well, if you guys ever wanted to know what I cough like,

[00:35:50] what I sneeze like, what I sound like when I'm sick,

[00:35:55] I guess I don't know affected.

[00:35:58] I feel great other than just this congestion.

[00:36:01] I feel awesome.

[00:36:04] I am going to see this film for the second time Tuesday

[00:36:07] come hell or high water.

[00:36:08] And it's going to have to take me like really being down and out to not go.

[00:36:13] Anyway,

[00:36:15] I

[00:36:17] loved it.

[00:36:18] It's the best film I've ever seen.

[00:36:20] And for the for a long time,

[00:36:22] I was posting, not a long time,

[00:36:25] but a couple times I was posting films

[00:36:28] that I feel like are must-seize on the podcast,

[00:36:32] Instagram page.

[00:36:34] This is it, man.

[00:36:36] Like I'm sure there could be a topper for it,

[00:36:40] but this is the best film I've ever seen.

[00:36:44] The cinematography.

[00:36:47] Eat like so much of it you could just still frame it and it's gorgeous.

[00:36:52] The casting, the acting,

[00:36:54] the story,

[00:36:56] the screenplay,

[00:36:59] the score,

[00:37:01] just all of it.

[00:37:04] It's art.

[00:37:07] It's art and as an artist

[00:37:12] to finally have art again in movies

[00:37:17] was just so refreshing.

[00:37:20] And I'm looking at it from an adult view now.

[00:37:25] There's a lot of films that I thought were cool

[00:37:27] that when I went back to them later,

[00:37:29] I was like, wow dude,

[00:37:33] this did not stand the test of time.

[00:37:36] Like there's certain ones that are still nostalgia

[00:37:38] just to this day and I still love

[00:37:41] because of that nostalgia,

[00:37:43] but truly or not that great of films.

[00:37:45] This,

[00:37:47] this is art.

[00:37:49] And it's just so good to have some art again

[00:37:52] in all that we,

[00:37:57] all the money that is spent

[00:37:59] and all that we have been through.

[00:38:01] It's just so great that it,

[00:38:04] that we can suss out this.

[00:38:06] And again, I'm,

[00:38:09] I'm pissed that I didn't know this was a real person

[00:38:12] and I didn't know about her,

[00:38:14] but I'm so glad I do now.

[00:38:17] And I really want all of you

[00:38:19] to not take too much time,

[00:38:21] listen to me be sick

[00:38:23] on this diary entry.

[00:38:26] I can't even say it.

[00:38:27] Diary entry,

[00:38:29] be sick here

[00:38:31] or whatever I am.

[00:38:33] Getting more and more stuffed up by the second.

[00:38:37] It could be just me talking and breathing.

[00:38:40] I don't know.

[00:38:41] It's probably allergies.

[00:38:44] But I want you to go see Caprini.

[00:38:47] And I have said this to people,

[00:38:50] but I will say it here again.

[00:38:52] You'll see it

[00:38:54] and you'll want to pay

[00:38:56] for other people to see it.

[00:38:58] I promise.

[00:39:00] And with that diary listeners,

[00:39:02] I will bid you a do

[00:39:04] have a very blessed week.

[00:39:06] I guarantee if you see this film,

[00:39:08] you will have a phenomenal week

[00:39:11] because it'll give you new life.

[00:39:14] I love you all.

[00:39:16] God bless.

[00:39:21] Thanks for listening.

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