Ep. 232 "Touching Base" (A personal Diary Entry)

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[00:00:28] [SPEAKER_00]: Well, hello Diary listeners, happy Tuesday.

[00:00:32] [SPEAKER_00]: You know, I realize that you might be listening to this not on a Tuesday, but I don't care.

[00:00:38] [SPEAKER_00]: I recorded it on a Tuesday.

[00:00:41] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm calling this Diary Entry as it's a personal one.

[00:00:45] [SPEAKER_00]: Touching Base, I don't know how long it's going to go.

[00:00:48] [SPEAKER_00]: I always think that they're not going to go very long, but I tend to have about an hour of rambling in me.

[00:00:57] [SPEAKER_00]: Uh, coincidentally, it's kind of my average.

[00:01:01] [SPEAKER_00]: So I hope that you enjoy.

[00:01:03] [SPEAKER_00]: My goal is to make this one fairly easy.

[00:01:06] [SPEAKER_00]: And, um, you know,

[00:01:11] [SPEAKER_00]: uh, giving you some insights.

[00:01:12] [SPEAKER_00]: I do have quite a, uh, a recording bank of really dope tattoo artists coming up, Kevin Klein.

[00:01:23] [SPEAKER_00]: Um, Louis, oh shit.

[00:01:26] [SPEAKER_00]: Louis, we went over it.

[00:01:29] [SPEAKER_00]: He's from Australia. He's dope.

[00:01:31] [SPEAKER_00]: Um, let me make sure I, you probably doesn't even have it listed.

[00:01:36] [SPEAKER_00]: Um, we go over and I'd like I never really, I know him is Louis from Australia.

[00:01:41] [SPEAKER_00]: That's how I know him.

[00:01:44] [SPEAKER_00]: Um, we started talking when I first started recording this podcast.

[00:01:48] [SPEAKER_00]: So, hilarious that I don't remember. Crazy.

[00:01:52] [SPEAKER_00]: Um, I'm looking at for past area, Louis. I'm very sorry.

[00:01:56] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm a terrible, terrible friend and person.

[00:01:59] [SPEAKER_00]: And I, you know, I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

[00:02:03] [SPEAKER_00]: Um, but yeah, he's from,

[00:02:06] [SPEAKER_00]: He's from Australia and he's coming up

[00:02:09] [SPEAKER_00]: and we'll be, we'll be going over.

[00:02:12] [SPEAKER_00]: No, I can't even find his, his freaking Instagram.

[00:02:16] [SPEAKER_00]: I think I'm smelling his name wrong.

[00:02:18] [SPEAKER_01]: I'm sorry, Louis. It's terrible.

[00:02:21] [SPEAKER_01]: Um, I'm a mess.

[00:02:24] [SPEAKER_01]: Let's see here.

[00:02:25] [SPEAKER_01]: Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh my god, this terrible.

[00:02:37] [SPEAKER_01]: Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh we've got to go hi hi hi hi hi hi, hi hi, I hope once I get

[00:02:52] [SPEAKER_00]: uh, my bearings here with his name to talk about?

[00:02:57] [SPEAKER_00]: That's why I totally, it's fun. You know, it's Louis or Louis, I was totally spelling it wrong.

[00:03:09] [SPEAKER_00]: Pardon that, that real listeners and pardon me, Louis. I love you. I love you very much. I'm just really a

[00:03:15] [SPEAKER_00]: bismal with names. I'm hoping that real listeners that as you listen to me and you keep coming back

[00:03:21] [SPEAKER_00]: that there is something that you truly like about how much of a full I am and how imperfect I am

[00:03:29] [SPEAKER_00]: and maybe find a little bit of respite in all the flaws that make up me and realize that if you ever

[00:03:37] [SPEAKER_00]: felt like you were flawed, I am very flawed. And yet I am still living, still going and by the glory

[00:03:46] [SPEAKER_00]: of God allowed to have another day. So if there's hope for me, there's hope for you. I have him coming

[00:03:52] [SPEAKER_00]: up. I have Ali Oxenblood that I am I'm going to be recording with this upcoming Monday. That's

[00:04:00] [SPEAKER_00]: really fun. Ali is dope. She's an amazing tattoo artist. I've met her at the Paradise events.

[00:04:07] [SPEAKER_00]: She had her baby attached to her like the whole time it was really cool and as somebody who

[00:04:13] [SPEAKER_00]: was not to have kids, that was a fun thing to witness and to see that whatever I felt was impossible.

[00:04:22] [SPEAKER_00]: She kind of showed me that it wasn't impossible and that you can do it all if you'd like.

[00:04:30] [SPEAKER_00]: So you know, not that I would negate my story or what I chose to do but

[00:04:35] [SPEAKER_00]: I it was it was great to see her and she's been a good friend on the back end where we're

[00:04:43] [SPEAKER_00]: social media buddies and I hope to glow grow closer to her as time goes on. She's not that far away.

[00:04:50] [SPEAKER_00]: She's in PA. I'd like to do some more conventions with my PA peeps really finding a lot of

[00:05:05] [SPEAKER_00]: demographics a little bit better than Maryland opportunities for space. I mean who knows? Who knows

[00:05:12] [SPEAKER_00]: what's ahead but that's that's a place that I find a lot of tattoo artists that I really really love

[00:05:17] [SPEAKER_00]: and that I am friends with. So a lot's down the pipeline so I kind of feel selfish about

[00:05:24] [SPEAKER_00]: doing a personal entry but there's a lot of things that I've experienced that I want to share with you

[00:05:29] [SPEAKER_00]: guys and I hope that it will, I don't know, intrigue you. One thing that I'm doing today is I'm

[00:05:37] [SPEAKER_00]: going to see a movie and I'm not really a huge movie gore. I'm a huge movie lover. There's been

[00:05:44] [SPEAKER_00]: times on the podcast page the IG account that I've listed movies that I think are worth seeing.

[00:05:52] [SPEAKER_00]: I should really, there's so much I needed to do. I should really take my booklist and my movie

[00:05:59] [SPEAKER_00]: list and put them all on the website, the actual apprenticeship diary's website so that you all can

[00:06:08] [SPEAKER_00]: check out what I'm reading when I'm listening to what I'm watching, what I suggest watching

[00:06:13] [SPEAKER_00]: and just to kind of, you know, further understand the person that you're listening to and whether

[00:06:19] [SPEAKER_00]: or not you really want to take my lead. Quick segue somebody at church, his name is John.

[00:06:28] [SPEAKER_00]: He told me that his daughter was like if you re-want, well, my life, that's what

[00:06:35] [SPEAKER_00]: and if he fast forward hers that I would be, which she would be and I said, oh my god dude,

[00:06:41] [SPEAKER_00]: you have no idea what you're asking for, you have no idea what you're putting on yourself. I told her

[00:06:47] [SPEAKER_00]: I looked at her and I said no, do better be well informed that it has been a wild freaking

[00:06:54] [SPEAKER_00]: ride kid. I wouldn't seek it not not with the 2020 view back that I have. I wouldn't

[00:07:03] [SPEAKER_00]: necessarily. I mean, I'm happy for it, grateful for it but I had to go through a lot of

[00:07:12] [SPEAKER_00]: crap and so did everybody in my life and most mostly my parents. If you hear some jingling in the

[00:07:19] [SPEAKER_00]: back, that's Rico he's getting ready to hunt today. He might get a really awesome

[00:07:26] [SPEAKER_00]: deer for us but either way he's going hunting, he might interrupt me. He's informing me to say goodbye

[00:07:35] [SPEAKER_00]: as he goes off to hunt so if there is a brief interruption it's gonna be him and you might

[00:07:42] [SPEAKER_00]: care him in the background because I've kind of not closed the door on my studio area right now

[00:07:49] [SPEAKER_00]: which is a bedroom. Anyway, I wanted to share with you that I'm going to see

[00:07:55] [SPEAKER_00]: and my racist and really excited about this. It's actually the movie that I wanted to see

[00:08:00] [SPEAKER_00]: before any others. It was the only one I really wanted to see period but another friend at church

[00:08:07] [SPEAKER_00]: her name's Hillary she loves her and it's her genre and I've never liked her at all

[00:08:16] [SPEAKER_00]: and but she loves it and I'm intrigued by people who love it. I do have a lot of respect for them

[00:08:24] [SPEAKER_00]: because I do think that horror films are the most artful films. It takes a lot more

[00:08:34] [SPEAKER_00]: creative nuances and production to really get in somebody's head and invoke fear and invoke

[00:08:43] [SPEAKER_00]: the kind of stories that they're trying to to be believed and assimilated to in your emotional

[00:08:53] [SPEAKER_00]: settings so they're very powerful that way and my cousins like this, my cousin Kim, she

[00:09:01] [SPEAKER_00]: she loved going and being scared like she would laugh. She would laugh at horror films and I just

[00:09:09] [SPEAKER_00]: don't know I would just get to empathetic. I think recent years I have taken more of a

[00:09:19] [SPEAKER_00]: distal view of it and I don't get so empathetic with the characters now. Now I look at it

[00:09:26] [SPEAKER_00]: more from a production standpoint. It's even benefited more if I'm on some kind of substance

[00:09:34] [SPEAKER_00]: that will allow me to look at it from a different view. Getting high definitely helped me be like oh

[00:09:41] [SPEAKER_00]: the score of this film is very, very good you know instead of getting scared but instead of seeing

[00:09:49] [SPEAKER_00]: am I racist first I ended up seeing the substance and I do feel that this platform is smaller

[00:09:57] [SPEAKER_00]: as it is and my voice and my impact being what it is I would it would be wrong of me not to shout

[00:10:08] [SPEAKER_00]: out this film. It is so good. Like I said I'm not a horror film and this does have horror aspects

[00:10:18] [SPEAKER_00]: but they were very digestible as far as I can tell and very potent to our current day society

[00:10:26] [SPEAKER_00]: because it's really deals with influence and relevance and it's from more of a female standpoint

[00:10:37] [SPEAKER_00]: I'd say and it also comments I think on legacy and sharing your genetics with another person

[00:10:47] [SPEAKER_00]: and what that is and what kind of place you have to step into as a parent and you know somebody who

[00:10:58] [SPEAKER_00]: can grow old with grace and understand what that next phase of life is it's just the whole thing

[00:11:05] [SPEAKER_00]: it is full of substance through and through it was in two hours and 20 minutes the film and

[00:11:12] [SPEAKER_00]: it was it was incredible that you could make a film

[00:11:18] [SPEAKER_00]: artfully about

[00:11:20] [SPEAKER_00]: that title the substance and and just the whole time

[00:11:26] [SPEAKER_00]: make a moving commentary on it and Demi Morrison and I think it's one of her best films ever

[00:11:32] [SPEAKER_00]: there's a lot of unabashed nudity for nudity sake it's not gratuitous it's it's very raw and very real

[00:11:47] [SPEAKER_00]: and I struggle with the word brave but it is brave in terms of

[00:11:54] [SPEAKER_00]: even though I don't you know if I looked as good as Demi Morrison I'd show my body off too she looks

[00:12:01] [SPEAKER_00]: amazing she's a lot older in real life than what she's portrayed in the film as so that should tell you

[00:12:07] [SPEAKER_00]: something she plays a younger character actually in the film then she is in real life so she's doing

[00:12:13] [SPEAKER_00]: great but she you know shows all and it's just it's a very artfully done film one thing

[00:12:23] [SPEAKER_00]: that I really want to give you guys if you do go to see it and will not bust the film up

[00:12:29] [SPEAKER_00]: it's just more of a thing to pay attention to I once talked to a friend of mine who sent me

[00:12:36] [SPEAKER_00]: something about it was like a microscopic view of something and she said wow look how gross and I said

[00:12:43] [SPEAKER_00]: dude you look at anything in a microscopic view you're gonna be utterly and completely repulse I mean

[00:12:50] [SPEAKER_00]: every there's little micro organisms puking having sex and all the stuff all over our bodies you know

[00:12:59] [SPEAKER_00]: there's you know all these different parasites all these different you know

[00:13:07] [SPEAKER_00]: things happening on that level that we don't have cognition of or at least pay attention to

[00:13:14] [SPEAKER_00]: that are in fact there and you know I think that when you are trying to not be afraid of so much

[00:13:23] [SPEAKER_00]: you do really have to zoom out with your view and I um I think it's very important to do that whenever

[00:13:33] [SPEAKER_00]: you're seeking to uh take in beauty so uh it was almost interrupting my thought he did actually

[00:13:45] [SPEAKER_00]: interrupt my train of thought um I uh I think it's very necessary for in order for somebody to

[00:13:58] [SPEAKER_00]: approach things in life and approach them from more of a rational standpoint and really make

[00:14:07] [SPEAKER_00]: how collective moves about how to um I make choices in form choices it's really important to zoom out

[00:14:19] [SPEAKER_00]: otherwise you're operating with and fear and that's what this film really does is that

[00:14:24] [SPEAKER_00]: it really zooms in with its shots to a gratuitous level to a very

[00:14:34] [SPEAKER_00]: confronting level uh and it does this beautiful thing where it gets so up close that you're disgusted

[00:14:42] [SPEAKER_00]: you're like you're just repulsed and uh that's something that when you you go to watch it I think

[00:14:50] [SPEAKER_00]: is really incredible it's so well shot and it really adds to the level of disgust and it's

[00:14:59] [SPEAKER_00]: considered a body horror film which I didn't know what that genre was but now I do it's really about like

[00:15:09] [SPEAKER_00]: internal disgust it's not a lot of external projection so this whole film is is like a

[00:15:17] [SPEAKER_00]: medicine it's a metaphor for um I think what we the horrors we face internally all the time about our

[00:15:27] [SPEAKER_00]: own bodies and our own beings and our existential uh existence it's really really good

[00:15:36] [SPEAKER_00]: I could gush on and on and I actually did uh feel the need in my car as I was dropping my friend

[00:15:45] [SPEAKER_00]: I felt the need to record a whole review of the film because it was so impassual I'm still

[00:15:52] [SPEAKER_00]: really digesting again Hillary wants to see it again I'm not going to see it again as I want to go

[00:15:59] [SPEAKER_00]: see other films that I I want to give my money to and my race as being another one um so I'm

[00:16:07] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm going to hold off on that but I definitely I'm going to use this platform to tell everybody

[00:16:12] [SPEAKER_00]: to go watch it I think it's super relevant I'd love to know what people of different um

[00:16:22] [SPEAKER_00]: different sexes different demographics different you know generations feel about this film because

[00:16:31] [SPEAKER_00]: I just um the one thing I will say is that it's going to be lost on people like my mom who really don't

[00:16:40] [SPEAKER_00]: enjoy high art it it makes them she she doesn't it discuss her just on its face like the entire

[00:16:49] [SPEAKER_00]: thing seems absurd and nonsensical and she doesn't even understand the point of it so

[00:16:55] [SPEAKER_00]: she stops before it even really begins and so if you're that kind of person who just you know

[00:17:02] [SPEAKER_00]: you're a no BS person you don't you know you don't see any point in uh I guess in art

[00:17:13] [SPEAKER_00]: in a lot of ways it's funny that I am the artist that I am such a no nonsens parent but but she

[00:17:18] [SPEAKER_00]: really she really doesn't she likes craft and she likes skill and she likes honing skill

[00:17:26] [SPEAKER_00]: but my mother doesn't really enjoy conceptual art it's never been her thing she likes

[00:17:34] [SPEAKER_00]: decorative art she likes um she likes things that add to a room you know like like a pattern or

[00:17:44] [SPEAKER_00]: you know she likes toll painting and folk art and things that speak to a kind of

[00:17:52] [SPEAKER_00]: time period and things like that that really bring her a lot of peace and order

[00:17:59] [SPEAKER_00]: but if it comments on disorder she's not she doesn't like it and you know I can understand

[00:18:05] [SPEAKER_00]: which doesn't like it it's not supposed to be light it's supposed to be observed and to rate how it

[00:18:10] [SPEAKER_00]: makes you feel and I think that kind of stuff just seems like a waste of time to her

[00:18:16] [SPEAKER_00]: um which I you know I understand but as an artist I find it very good art very powerful and

[00:18:28] [SPEAKER_00]: that being said I'm going into another artistic realm to see at my racist because

[00:18:38] [SPEAKER_00]: one of my favorite podcasters is a political commentator I've already had my

[00:18:45] [SPEAKER_00]: my confession podcast diary entry with you guys confessing that I'm conservative

[00:18:52] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm also a Christ follower so you know I don't I don't listen to a lot of

[00:18:59] [SPEAKER_00]: creative podcasts the one that I aim to listen to recently is a taxidermy podcast because I am

[00:19:05] [SPEAKER_00]: fascinated by taxidermy and these people who do it there's these two girls

[00:19:10] [SPEAKER_00]: uh women that they're young though do taxidermy and I'm fascinated by it they do beautiful work

[00:19:21] [SPEAKER_00]: ooh I probably should shout out their podcasts so that I can I can give you guys something to look at

[00:19:27] [SPEAKER_00]: but their work is absolutely stunning and forgive me for not being hit to to any of it

[00:19:35] [SPEAKER_00]: it's called wildverse is the podcast and I'm excited to start listening to it I haven't yet but

[00:19:43] [SPEAKER_00]: you know it's on the list but I don't listen to things that I do I feel like in order to keep

[00:19:50] [SPEAKER_00]: the uh art pure I don't really want to snake anybody else's thing and I think that you know

[00:20:01] [SPEAKER_00]: you should comment on the things that you're interested in and politics is something I'm very

[00:20:08] [SPEAKER_00]: interested in tonight is the JD Vance and walls debate I'll be listening to that I'm very

[00:20:14] [SPEAKER_00]: excited about that I believe that whether or not you think the way I do or not you're on the

[00:20:21] [SPEAKER_00]: other side that you should be politically aware I that is an opinion I hold because if you don't

[00:20:31] [SPEAKER_00]: listen if you're not aware then you've really stripped yourself of having an informed opinion

[00:20:37] [SPEAKER_00]: and as I said about you know zooming out on things you have to take in all the information

[00:20:45] [SPEAKER_00]: and really look at it from a wide angle lens to have an opinion if you're if you're cutting out

[00:20:51] [SPEAKER_00]: a lot of the things that would give you proper choice and proper view then you're not making

[00:20:57] [SPEAKER_00]: an informed decision and you're just you're just following and you know I have done that in my life

[00:21:09] [SPEAKER_00]: in a lot of different realms I can't say that I haven't but if you do that you have to be prepared

[00:21:16] [SPEAKER_00]: for the fact that people are not going to take you seriously and they're not gonna respect you

[00:21:21] [SPEAKER_00]: even when you need to be heard about things that are very potent to you people will just

[00:21:29] [SPEAKER_00]: discount you and you know because I do have a platform and I do talk at length about a lot of

[00:21:38] [SPEAKER_00]: things I feel it's necessary for me to actually state who I am and what I am and what I believe

[00:21:46] [SPEAKER_00]: and to be seen and because I don't want to be irrelevant I do want the things that I do

[00:21:53] [SPEAKER_00]: and the life that I live to have some meaning doesn't have to have more than it should I'm not

[00:22:01] [SPEAKER_00]: looking for that kind of imbalance going back to the substance they do talk a lot about balance

[00:22:08] [SPEAKER_00]: so yeah I'm excited to see Matt's production it's supposedly very funny

[00:22:15] [SPEAKER_00]: and I'm I'm looking for that you know I'm really looking for that I've talked to younger clients in

[00:22:20] [SPEAKER_00]: mine who have gone to see the new Beetlejuice movie and it was very lukewarm the take home they

[00:22:28] [SPEAKER_00]: didn't it wasn't like it was bad it was just from what I heard it wasn't it wasn't comparable

[00:22:34] [SPEAKER_00]: to the original at all because it it lacked a lot of what you felt with the original

[00:22:43] [SPEAKER_00]: I heard that it didn't have the Tim Burton feel which I maybe it did maybe it didn't

[00:22:54] [SPEAKER_00]: I think that we've come to a point in life where the Tim Burton feel is so mainstream now that

[00:23:01] [SPEAKER_00]: it would be hard to say that because that's kind of the fashion right now is Tim Burton like

[00:23:10] [SPEAKER_00]: the circus has really left the tense if you don't mind me saying everybody like you know what is

[00:23:15] [SPEAKER_00]: odd is mainstream right now and so for you know people like me who've always been more on the

[00:23:23] [SPEAKER_00]: subversive of things being attacked to artists being an artist being a you know a commentator from a

[00:23:33] [SPEAKER_00]: very let's look at this from another perspective kind of place it makes sense that I'm now

[00:23:40] [SPEAKER_00]: super conservative or at least put in that box because everything else is crazy so I don't know

[00:23:49] [SPEAKER_00]: how you could it's it's a hard thing to say because was it lacking in a Tim Burton feel or

[00:23:56] [SPEAKER_00]: Tim Burton just so mainstream now that he's lost his potency in how his movies are received like

[00:24:04] [SPEAKER_00]: we're so dead to that that there's no there's no punch to it I mean and we've also become very

[00:24:15] [SPEAKER_00]: woke and that's what I said without seeing the film was that you know the first film was brave

[00:24:21] [SPEAKER_00]: it did a lot of things that now I know won't be done like you know just actually grabs the pussy

[00:24:28] [SPEAKER_00]: of the main character one of them the female version and like after you know Trump and what he said

[00:24:37] [SPEAKER_00]: in a locker room amongst other men probably in joking if my joke meter has any kind of

[00:24:51] [SPEAKER_00]: pain to label him like an awful human you know I've been I mean if anybody recorded any of the

[00:25:07] [SPEAKER_00]: stuff that I've had in confidence with my friends I know that each of us would be labeled

[00:25:16] [SPEAKER_00]: awful people you know the things that we've said so when it when it gets shown to you in a

[00:25:21] [SPEAKER_00]: different light and when it gets blasted as this you know awful thing and what you thought was

[00:25:26] [SPEAKER_00]: private is now main mainstream it it just it it really hurts everything forgive me listeners

[00:25:37] [SPEAKER_00]: that was Rico again and he said goodbye and that was our brief interruption

[00:25:46] [SPEAKER_00]: uh hopefully I'm recording now and um all's all's happening so like I said uh the movie before

[00:25:57] [SPEAKER_00]: when it happened was before all of this woke shit I mean that's like the only thing I can say about it before

[00:26:07] [SPEAKER_00]: we lost our sense of humor and honestly I'm so I'm so over the the anti bully space honestly

[00:26:24] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm ready to bring back bullying and this is from somebody who was terribly bullied as a child

[00:26:31] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm you know they say hurt people hurt people and maybe that's just what's speaking right now but

[00:26:37] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm like I see the joy now in making fun of things I see the joy and being playful and I understand

[00:26:53] [SPEAKER_00]: that you might find something funny and then somebody else takes it way too seriously and gets hurt

[00:26:58] [SPEAKER_00]: come on man the entire sensitivity spectrum has just reached a ridiculous point now to where I

[00:27:13] [SPEAKER_00]: am moved to not caring like I don't want any of my clients to listen to this and think that

[00:27:23] [SPEAKER_00]: they can't come to me with their their deep rooted feelings and that I'm not going to have

[00:27:28] [SPEAKER_00]: compassion I will but overall that's what comedy is meant to do it's meant to make you look at things

[00:27:36] [SPEAKER_00]: from a wide angle lens and not project so much and not take things so seriously and not be so

[00:27:45] [SPEAKER_00]: repulsant so scared but rather laugh because it's either laugh or cry and most of it is when you think about it

[00:27:53] [SPEAKER_00]: just simply absurd and when you you take the stance to really I think conquer your fears and when

[00:28:06] [SPEAKER_00]: you actually look at your fears for what they were from you know a hindsight standpoint

[00:28:13] [SPEAKER_00]: I can tell you you just feel ridiculous for having had so much

[00:28:19] [SPEAKER_00]: keep you from the things you wanted to do it truly does make you laugh I mean at least it does for me

[00:28:26] [SPEAKER_00]: I mean I guess you could feel shame I guess you could beat yourself up but that's wildly unproductive

[00:28:32] [SPEAKER_00]: so to me I just I always dip till after I always dip till like man I'm so absurd

[00:28:40] [SPEAKER_00]: I I will say I don't take it amongst myself to bully people that's not my thing I don't even take it

[00:28:50] [SPEAKER_00]: to to to joke it people but I do enjoy jokesters I grow with my father I grow up with a very harsh

[00:28:59] [SPEAKER_00]: mother mother and a lot of critique and if I didn't if I didn't fall into the funny

[00:29:06] [SPEAKER_00]: I would have just been trampled by life I would have I would have been decimated by life and

[00:29:14] [SPEAKER_00]: I just find such a God-giving gift and joy in laughter and people who are able to

[00:29:23] [SPEAKER_00]: point out the absurd and make fun in very productive ways I just think that they're masters

[00:29:31] [SPEAKER_00]: they're master influencers they're master commentators they say that that comedy is one of the

[00:29:39] [SPEAKER_00]: hardest genres to do because you have to be so unbelievably serious and stoic

[00:29:48] [SPEAKER_00]: and that is something that Matt Walsh is just incredibly good at

[00:29:54] [SPEAKER_00]: the the thing that I've heard him say over and over again is that because this is documentary

[00:29:59] [SPEAKER_00]: and because he's actually meeting with DEI grifters and they are grifters I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm not

[00:30:09] [SPEAKER_00]: sorry they are 100% grifters I mean I think Robin DiAngelo was paid $15,000 to be in this film

[00:30:17] [SPEAKER_00]: just she didn't even know she'd be a part of the film she knew she'd be a part of a

[00:30:22] [SPEAKER_00]: documentary but she was paid paid and she thought she was being graceful because they offered

[00:30:31] [SPEAKER_00]: her 20 grand and I think it was the bidding between 20 grand and 10 and she was like well let's meet

[00:30:38] [SPEAKER_00]: in the mid she thought she was being gracious to offer up her sublime expertise in the matter

[00:30:46] [SPEAKER_00]: for 15 grand for an hour I mean if that doesn't make you puke I don't even know I don't even

[00:30:55] [SPEAKER_00]: know what to say to you I mean I know time is money I know we'll never get it back but it's not just

[00:31:05] [SPEAKER_00]: so you guys know like if you're at all like oh poor Robin poor her she was lulled in by deceptive

[00:31:14] [SPEAKER_00]: right wing conspiracy christian national principle she was victimized she was not she was paid 15 grand

[00:31:24] [SPEAKER_00]: for an hour of her time she was not victimized all right and that's what these people do they are

[00:31:33] [SPEAKER_00]: thrifters they pray on people's guilt on people's wanting to be good people and that's what

[00:31:43] [SPEAKER_00]: they do they just grift grift griff and that's all scam artists do is they count on you doing

[00:31:52] [SPEAKER_00]: the kind beautiful thing and they just opportunistically use you to their own ends and that's

[00:32:00] [SPEAKER_00]: these people are that's what they do and if anybody deserves to be made fun of it's them

[00:32:07] [SPEAKER_00]: and what Matt Walsh has said is that you know it's funny because you're looking at it

[00:32:16] [SPEAKER_00]: you know as a spectator you know and knowing knowing the joke like you're safe guarded by knowing

[00:32:22] [SPEAKER_00]: the joke and knowing the premise but he's like when you're actually in it you know doing what he's doing

[00:32:29] [SPEAKER_00]: he said it's not cool it's not funny it's actually exceedingly disturbing and so you know I was

[00:32:40] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm sure really hard for him to act this role and to play it the way he did because

[00:32:49] [SPEAKER_00]: you know he had to submit himself to such discomfort and that's what I was talking my

[00:32:56] [SPEAKER_00]: and who was talking about Beetlejuice I said you know in order to be funny which the original

[00:33:01] [SPEAKER_00]: Beetlejuice was funny as well as just artful and evocative visually and all these different

[00:33:11] [SPEAKER_00]: things that you just didn't see very much at that time very creative very weird it has to be brave

[00:33:21] [SPEAKER_00]: it has to be brazenly brave the actors need to be able to cross the line of appropriateness

[00:33:29] [SPEAKER_00]: in order to find the funny I mean you got people like fucking willferal now sorry to curse

[00:33:35] [SPEAKER_00]: I am trying to work on it listeners I'm I know I it hasn't seen like I have but I but I

[00:33:43] [SPEAKER_00]: and I didn't realize it isn't for an occasion under consent of the king it's for an

[00:33:47] [SPEAKER_00]: occasion under carnal knowledge which that's why it's a slap in the face to God it's your

[00:33:56] [SPEAKER_00]: actively you're actively doing something that God would be against and that's why it's considered

[00:34:06] [SPEAKER_00]: blasphemy I didn't I didn't realize that I thought it was under consent of the king

[00:34:11] [SPEAKER_00]: which goes back to Lord Vassel kind of timelines where you know you couldn't

[00:34:16] [SPEAKER_00]: submit a marriage without the acceptance of the Lord and all of this kind of stuff that happened in

[00:34:24] [SPEAKER_00]: in more I guess feudal times forgive me I'm learning all the time

[00:34:32] [SPEAKER_00]: so that's that I mean it's the point of this podcast the apprenticeship diary is I'm so a

[00:34:36] [SPEAKER_00]: apprentice of life in certain modalities I'm a mentor I have mentored but just you know the reason why

[00:34:44] [SPEAKER_00]: works is because I'm just as willing to have my heart opened up to new information as I am

[00:34:50] [SPEAKER_00]: give it to someone else and in giving this to all of you I I hope you understand that I'm I'm very

[00:34:58] [SPEAKER_00]: open to receiving as well I'm not going to listen to you if you're just coming to tell me I'm a horrible

[00:35:04] [SPEAKER_00]: person because why would I why would I I'll affit it there's been some great I mean you guys know

[00:35:13] [SPEAKER_00]: there's been some great like bad reviews of me and my show if they weren't so bloody long I'd put

[00:35:22] [SPEAKER_00]: them a needle point in hang on my my wall they don't do it I mean I'll do the needle point and just

[00:35:28] [SPEAKER_00]: suck it up it'll be a scroll but it'll be a fun scroll be fun to make you know anyway segue um

[00:35:37] [SPEAKER_00]: but yeah I told this young client of mine I was like you know the reason my beetle just when it came out

[00:35:42] [SPEAKER_00]: was so good was because it was bold the kind of things if you're if you're trying to do a second

[00:35:48] [SPEAKER_00]: you have to get bolder still you have to be even more boundary breaking and if they weren't

[00:35:54] [SPEAKER_00]: willing to do that in this next you know version of it then of course of course it didn't have

[00:36:02] [SPEAKER_00]: the head of the original of course it didn't it's just it's just rehashing the same thing over

[00:36:09] [SPEAKER_00]: and it's falling on a more uh de-sensitized society who's had like I said the circus is out

[00:36:18] [SPEAKER_00]: they're out and walking around we are so de-sensitized to the strange and unusual

[00:36:27] [SPEAKER_00]: that it's become mainstream and so like the Annie has gone up so you have to truly be brave

[00:36:36] [SPEAKER_00]: you truly have to confront things in a way that risks and it's it's the reason why I did

[00:36:45] [SPEAKER_00]: like the substance because I feel like them me more and Dennis Quaid both really put themselves to

[00:36:51] [SPEAKER_00]: that task of apparently Dennis Quaid is also done Reagan which I'd like to see as well

[00:36:58] [SPEAKER_00]: these are boundary breakers man they're putting themselves to some serious art here

[00:37:04] [SPEAKER_00]: and Matt Walsh I just I love what the daily wire is attempting to do they know that they have to

[00:37:11] [SPEAKER_00]: put some culture out they need to actually be culturally relevant because the culture has been

[00:37:20] [SPEAKER_00]: so ideologically captured by lunatics that are informing people and really really really

[00:37:29] [SPEAKER_00]: uh doing it to our detriment and I see that and you know there was one thing

[00:37:38] [SPEAKER_00]: that my former teacher who doesn't like me right now because we got into I don't know he

[00:37:45] [SPEAKER_00]: he de-friended me and you know respect him for I guess doing what he had to do but we got into

[00:37:52] [SPEAKER_00]: some back and forth because he didn't appreciate something that I compared to being

[00:37:57] [SPEAKER_00]: reminiscing of the Holocaust it's just it was like that you can't touch on the Jewish

[00:38:02] [SPEAKER_00]: problems because it's just a bridge too far but anyway he ran a Facebook page and group

[00:38:11] [SPEAKER_00]: that I still am a part of called artists against iconoclasts and I'm still relevant there

[00:38:20] [SPEAKER_00]: because the whole thing is and I remember this when I was learning from him in school he was like

[00:38:27] [SPEAKER_00]: never put your art to something that you don't believe in because it's powerful your artist

[00:38:33] [SPEAKER_00]: powerful and in it really it really will push the idea further because visual art and art itself

[00:38:48] [SPEAKER_00]: is so culturally relevant I just you know I was talking to people at church the other day about

[00:38:55] [SPEAKER_00]: a former partner of mine he used to get so upset that people wouldn't really you know like crowd

[00:39:02] [SPEAKER_00]: around him at parties but he was an audio engineer and he went back to school for electronic engineering

[00:39:12] [SPEAKER_00]: wicked smart dude like really smart guy and he would just get so upset because people wouldn't

[00:39:19] [SPEAKER_00]: pay him the attention that they would pay me and I used to say to him I was like dude

[00:39:27] [SPEAKER_00]: they can't keep up with you they they're not smart enough and I'm I'm not smart enough like I

[00:39:35] [SPEAKER_00]: read his papers and I was like dude I have no idea I have no idea what this is talking about like

[00:39:40] [SPEAKER_00]: this is not a good paper because you're not you're not teaching a lemon audience like a

[00:39:46] [SPEAKER_00]: a good paper is something that can break down complex ideas and distill them to a lesser mind

[00:39:55] [SPEAKER_00]: or somebody not even a lesser mind somebody who's lesser knowledgeable about that thing I

[00:40:04] [SPEAKER_00]: already people are stupid they're just not aware of what he's aware of it's very specialized knowledge

[00:40:11] [SPEAKER_00]: and it's very you know I've seen the show what we do in the shadows it's very Colin Robinson

[00:40:20] [SPEAKER_00]: like you feel when you're listening to it like your soul is being sucked out of you it's very like

[00:40:26] [SPEAKER_00]: energy vampire because the the talk of it is so uninteresting as a lay person to even talk about

[00:40:37] [SPEAKER_00]: it's like if you wanted to like if you were just rattling off sports statistics to somebody who

[00:40:43] [SPEAKER_00]: is not interested in sports it's like oh my god shoot me now and that's how talking to a lot of

[00:40:50] [SPEAKER_00]: engineers are and I get why they get so have frustrated with gen pop people because they're just

[00:40:56] [SPEAKER_00]: like they they walk around being like you people are stupid so we get very frustrated and I told

[00:41:02] [SPEAKER_00]: him I was like you know the only reason my people crowd around me at a party is because what I do is stupid

[00:41:08] [SPEAKER_00]: and I mean that in the I guess the the kind of sense but like everybody can have an emotional

[00:41:16] [SPEAKER_00]: response to what I do they like it they don't like it they can say something they cannot say

[00:41:23] [SPEAKER_00]: something everybody can have an opinion about it because it's so easy to respond to there's a reason why

[00:41:30] [SPEAKER_00]: they started making biblical paintings and staying glass windows and stuff in churches is because

[00:41:38] [SPEAKER_00]: the majority of people were illiterate they needed to communicate the stories in a pictorial sense

[00:41:45] [SPEAKER_00]: so that generalized people people who were not given specialized knowledge and were uneducated could

[00:41:53] [SPEAKER_00]: actually receive the information you know this is this is stuff that you know it goes on from the

[00:42:03] [SPEAKER_00]: dawn of time and that's why art is so powerful it's why it's used by all these marketing systems

[00:42:08] [SPEAKER_00]: that's why it's you know you don't just go into a hotel room and it doesn't you know the walls are blank

[00:42:15] [SPEAKER_00]: you know they they construct a field there is a very potent thing that art does to the environment

[00:42:23] [SPEAKER_00]: there's just very specific way it communicates to people and it's very relevant and for people who

[00:42:32] [SPEAKER_00]: yeah like my mom he might think it more silly even she has to admit that that's the case now what

[00:42:37] [SPEAKER_00]: kind of feeling are you trying to invoke for her she doesn't she doesn't like anything that

[00:42:43] [SPEAKER_00]: invokes anything awful to her she doesn't like that and I get it I get that but you know there

[00:42:52] [SPEAKER_00]: art is used in all of these ways to communicate thoughts as a communication tool and it's very

[00:43:00] [SPEAKER_00]: very very powerful so shout out Jo Jiradano because he's the one who told me please don't

[00:43:07] [SPEAKER_00]: ever use your art for an ideology that you don't align with you'll end up profiting something

[00:43:16] [SPEAKER_00]: that you do not want to grow and it will be this horrible revelation of what you've been complicit in

[00:43:27] [SPEAKER_00]: and you know I've I've felt that way about my art in certain ways in a certain places I've

[00:43:34] [SPEAKER_00]: gone with my art just just out of exploration it I wasn't I wasn't knowingly doing it I was just

[00:43:44] [SPEAKER_00]: exploring I was blank slate I was just playing and because I even played in spaces that I now

[00:43:53] [SPEAKER_00]: invoked certain things in people I feel guilty you know it is a horrible thing to

[00:44:01] [SPEAKER_00]: grapple with um praise God that there's redemption and there's the ability to walk a different way

[00:44:12] [SPEAKER_00]: and to repent and to recognize what you've done and say you're sorry you know that such a gift

[00:44:22] [SPEAKER_00]: and it's it's necessary to move on or else I guess you would just stay in those horrible places

[00:44:29] [SPEAKER_00]: and beat yourself up over and over again and you wouldn't find the funny it would just be a

[00:44:36] [SPEAKER_00]: selfish cycle of penance which you know you definitely still feel as a human like I do still

[00:44:49] [SPEAKER_00]: catch myself beating myself up and being very addictive to self-deprecation which is why

[00:44:58] [SPEAKER_00]: the substance is so good I think too is that we can all kind of relate to it I will say that

[00:45:04] [SPEAKER_00]: film as much as it is a body horror film if you don't leave that film laughing your ass off and feeling

[00:45:13] [SPEAKER_00]: really good about yourself I'm here to tell you got some serious work to do on yourself because it's

[00:45:20] [SPEAKER_00]: pushing at some demons that you have inside of you that are gonna be rambling against that film

[00:45:25] [SPEAKER_00]: it's just was so funny by the end and absurd so I've had some really good laughs some really

[00:45:33] [SPEAKER_00]: good art I'm really excited for what's next you know this is post-wetting an announcement um

[00:45:41] [SPEAKER_00]: I think this is good to put out there you know it doesn't have to be maged this this podcast isn't

[00:45:46] [SPEAKER_00]: mainstream and anybody who listens to my personal my personal podcast probably are more

[00:45:53] [SPEAKER_00]: ingratiated and liking me than not but um I'm probably more interested in what my personal life yields

[00:46:02] [SPEAKER_00]: I would I would think um but uh I was gonna take Riko's last name Eliano

[00:46:14] [SPEAKER_00]: but but he recently told me that he didn't want me he didn't require that we had talked about a

[00:46:22] [SPEAKER_00]: wedding and it was something that he talked about wanting me to do but I don't think he really understood

[00:46:30] [SPEAKER_00]: what that meant I think he thought it was just a simple thing and I don't think he realized how much paper

[00:46:37] [SPEAKER_00]: work that would mean and what kind of decisions somebody like me would have to make about my name

[00:46:46] [SPEAKER_00]: and uh I we already said that I wasn't gonna change it on my artwork or anything professional

[00:46:51] [SPEAKER_00]: but on all of the other realms that identify me as a person my you know my license my passport my

[00:47:01] [SPEAKER_00]: you know whoa the social security office my retirement my bank accounts my my all these things

[00:47:10] [SPEAKER_00]: that would have to change and that we'd have to spend money to change to adopt his name

[00:47:15] [SPEAKER_00]: I don't think he really thought about any of that I think he just thought about the tradition of it

[00:47:22] [SPEAKER_00]: and if it was traditionally as simple as it was back in the day when people actually adhered to all

[00:47:30] [SPEAKER_00]: of the things that you did biblically uh it would be as simple as just saying I'm an Eliano now

[00:47:41] [SPEAKER_00]: but it's not that simple anymore we don't exist in that kind of simplicity anymore there's all

[00:47:48] [SPEAKER_00]: this red tape and paperwork so he told me that he didn't require that so it's not that I'm

[00:47:56] [SPEAKER_00]: not an Eliano I am an Eliano in my heart and my spirit um if I have a right a book

[00:48:06] [SPEAKER_00]: I think that I would write it as Amy Eliano give that to that space I have a pen name

[00:48:16] [SPEAKER_00]: but uh marriage wise I'm an Eliano I think he said it's done he's like we're already married

[00:48:22] [SPEAKER_00]: but stun is done I am an Eliano but legally I'm going to remain a nickels um and

[00:48:30] [SPEAKER_00]: strikingly that feels really good um I don't know it almost feels better now if we ever had kids

[00:48:38] [SPEAKER_00]: they'd be Eliano's I don't believe that God has even closed the door on that I know I certainly have

[00:48:45] [SPEAKER_00]: made my choices but God is very infinite and who knows you know weird shit happens all the time

[00:48:51] [SPEAKER_00]: and I believe in vast vast things that you'd just never know what may befall you so

[00:49:00] [SPEAKER_00]: who knows but I just wanted to tell y'all that people have been asking about a lot of different

[00:49:06] [SPEAKER_00]: things you know it's it's funny the tradition of marriage and what it's become and what it is

[00:49:11] [SPEAKER_00]: and other people's minds but I can honestly tell you all that I've just wanted to get back to work

[00:49:16] [SPEAKER_00]: back to some kind of rhythm I've a lot on my plate I always do uh on top of planning a wedding

[00:49:23] [SPEAKER_00]: I was helping with paradise to help promote them and that was really fun I've been told that

[00:49:32] [SPEAKER_00]: I can take an easier you know take take more of an easier route at this stage with that

[00:49:40] [SPEAKER_00]: and that they've kind of got it covered at this point I might still help here and there I know

[00:49:47] [SPEAKER_00]: I have to record some things about the seminar that I'm doing there if anybody's attending

[00:49:53] [SPEAKER_00]: which I hope you do and I hope you look to if if uh you aren't this year that you try to

[00:49:59] [SPEAKER_00]: in the future this is a a frequent seminar that I hope to keep keep expanding on as time and as

[00:50:08] [SPEAKER_00]: they give me license to expand on I am going to be presenting my gone fishing podcast or not

[00:50:18] [SPEAKER_00]: podcast seminar and they did they recognize the name I I was surprised I it wasn't recognized at

[00:50:24] [SPEAKER_00]: first but I think I don't know I don't know if we're got round but they're calling it gone fishing

[00:50:32] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm so happy because I really named it that for a reason for an artistic reason to invoke intrigue

[00:50:42] [SPEAKER_00]: but it's all about how to bait your hook for getting in a apprenticeship and what people would be

[00:50:50] [SPEAKER_00]: looking for if they were to apprentice people and I'm speaking of course from my experience

[00:50:55] [SPEAKER_00]: from what I've gathered from other people that I've had the gift to hear from from via this podcast

[00:51:04] [SPEAKER_00]: but their journeys have been so I'm going to be referencing a lot of external stories and

[00:51:12] [SPEAKER_00]: paying them homage because I have the benefit of a of this podcast and people coming here to learn

[00:51:21] [SPEAKER_00]: more about apprenticeships specifically within the tattoo realm but because of that I have people who

[00:51:29] [SPEAKER_00]: are seeking coming to me and asking for help and I get to really parcel their experience from that

[00:51:36] [SPEAKER_00]: even though I'm not actively mentoring somebody right now I can I can tell you what I would need

[00:51:42] [SPEAKER_00]: to mentor somebody I can get a general heartbeat from you know these other people that I'm hearing

[00:51:47] [SPEAKER_00]: from and what their experience in story has been so it's been such a wonderful space to

[00:51:56] [SPEAKER_00]: to speak from and I also have the collection of beginning stories from all generations

[00:52:05] [SPEAKER_00]: of tattoo artists people who have interviewed on here before their journey even began in tattooing

[00:52:13] [SPEAKER_00]: then now they're full steam ahead people who were tattooing long before I did give me the benefit

[00:52:21] [SPEAKER_00]: of their experience so I have a multifaceted view of this just per the podcast and I think I can

[00:52:29] [SPEAKER_00]: give some good tips and tricks about how to go about learning to tattoo at this point and what

[00:52:37] [SPEAKER_00]: the common need is at this point I also know that it will have to keep evolving because the technology

[00:52:47] [SPEAKER_00]: and the society keeps evolving around this topic there's there's more and more interest to

[00:52:53] [SPEAKER_00]: tattoo and people are really curious about how to get into it and now we have such open access to

[00:53:01] [SPEAKER_00]: tools and to a lot of the information via YouTube that you have this whole space of self teaching

[00:53:09] [SPEAKER_00]: that I really have to confront now at paradise I recognize the fact that

[00:53:15] [SPEAKER_00]: I might not be speaking to a lot of those people or if I am speaking to people who have gotten to

[00:53:23] [SPEAKER_00]: a natural stopping point in where they can learn for themselves and they're really

[00:53:29] [SPEAKER_00]: they're really still hungry so I might be speaking to people who have tried to self teach and are at

[00:53:36] [SPEAKER_00]: at a stopping point naturally and they need more and now they're really looking for an apprenticeship

[00:53:43] [SPEAKER_00]: so I have to I have to go over my entire seminar and each year I think we redo it but yeah

[00:53:51] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm excited about giving that I have to do some some promotions for that just so people know that

[00:53:58] [SPEAKER_00]: will be a free benefit of attending the show I'm very happy to give that away and to you know

[00:54:07] [SPEAKER_00]: give back to this next generation of tattoo artists I come from such an abundant space that I

[00:54:13] [SPEAKER_00]: really would like to give back and that's our honeymoon going to paradise because it is paradise

[00:54:21] [SPEAKER_00]: and Rico loves it and we're gonna be staying in extra day and just kind of enjoying the mountain

[00:54:28] [SPEAKER_00]: and the beauty of late October I Massachusetts. I'm excited because I'm hopefully going to be

[00:54:35] [SPEAKER_00]: seeing a client that we had to halt our connection I mean I could have returned to Rhode Island I

[00:54:42] [SPEAKER_00]: guess at any time but I haven't been out that way really since and I really didn't think

[00:54:50] [SPEAKER_00]: about telling her about paradise until now it was kind of shitty but I'm going to the the the

[00:54:59] [SPEAKER_00]: main tattoo that I started in 2020 before all this crap really started

[00:55:06] [SPEAKER_00]: that has been the past like four years. I haven't I haven't touched base with this project and I'm

[00:55:19] [SPEAKER_00]: constantly you know venture for us anyway but Lann I'm excited to meet with you and to

[00:55:28] [SPEAKER_00]: continue our work I know it's been a long time since I've I've tattooed you and I'm very sorry

[00:55:34] [SPEAKER_00]: I haven't been back to a power line tattoo but I'm looking forward to meeting her and paradise and I think

[00:55:40] [SPEAKER_00]: she's really gonna love love the experience out there and just all of it so that's pretty cool

[00:55:51] [SPEAKER_00]: and that'll be worth it to me and to work the show you know to actually tattoo there to touch

[00:55:56] [SPEAKER_00]: base of the client that I haven't seen a long time and then what are those comes? I'm really excited

[00:56:02] [SPEAKER_00]: about that. The other thing that I fill my plate with is education I have been taking IOTC

[00:56:13] [SPEAKER_00]: classes and what that acronym stands for is Institute on the Constitution and it's through the American

[00:56:21] [SPEAKER_00]: view website let me make sure that I I quote it correctly because I want to make sure that I do

[00:56:29] [SPEAKER_00]: for all of you but I do believe it's the americanview.com it's the americanview.com it's the

[00:56:40] [SPEAKER_00]: Institute on the Constitution and it has been so awesome so every Thursday evening I meet

[00:56:49] [SPEAKER_00]: with the educators of this they they teach it United States wide

[00:56:58] [SPEAKER_00]: there are educators across the United States that teach this class and it's basically a

[00:57:05] [SPEAKER_00]: reclamation of what our country was founded to be and what it was founded on the principles

[00:57:13] [SPEAKER_00]: it was founded on and it is accurate. I don't know how else to say it you have these from what I can

[00:57:23] [SPEAKER_00]: these dismantlers let's call them they're really communist but you have these people who want to

[00:57:32] [SPEAKER_00]: tear down America and they have other motives I'm not gonna get too far into that because I'm

[00:57:40] [SPEAKER_00]: going to stay on point but a lot of I think the issue with people today my self included is a

[00:57:52] [SPEAKER_00]: lack of education as to history our Constitution the law and how much God principles are actually

[00:58:09] [SPEAKER_00]: written into it baked into the pie it's all throughout it now whether you want to believe in

[00:58:15] [SPEAKER_00]: God or not that is the founding of our our legal constitution and what our actual law is based in

[00:58:29] [SPEAKER_00]: and so you can have all these things I've had people bring up the Jefferson Bible

[00:58:34] [SPEAKER_00]: like his I don't know if he should have written it but the reason why he wrote it was to

[00:58:42] [SPEAKER_00]: remove the miracles which I don't really know if you can remove the miracles and actually

[00:58:48] [SPEAKER_00]: ballet the the law of the book but he was trying to actually create a Bible and Christian principles

[00:58:57] [SPEAKER_00]: based in law in order that he was gonna give to the Native Americans and that was his aim so anybody

[00:59:04] [SPEAKER_00]: who thinks that he was an a principal person and Godfaring person it's just it's just wrong

[00:59:09] [SPEAKER_00]: he was that was his motivation and that's really what this entire course is about is teaching you

[00:59:17] [SPEAKER_00]: the reality of the formulation of our America and these United States and what our law is about

[00:59:28] [SPEAKER_00]: and when I say law the law of the land our republic our constitutional republic the constitution is the

[00:59:37] [SPEAKER_00]: stating of our law and we're really far away from what the constitution dictates of

[00:59:47] [SPEAKER_00]: I've attempted to get in the certain debates with certain people and what I find with a lot of people

[00:59:55] [SPEAKER_00]: is a lot of good intentions a lot of how do I put this I find that most people

[01:00:11] [SPEAKER_00]: think you can keep doubling down on an equity you know that whole thing of two wrongs don't make

[01:00:18] [SPEAKER_00]: a right what it's that in premise like I meet a lot of people who are like oh well we need to have

[01:00:24] [SPEAKER_00]: abortion as a right because of rape which you know statistics aside and how limited rape is

[01:00:34] [SPEAKER_00]: I mean you know there's all bunch of arguments to go into that why wouldn't it stand to reason

[01:00:42] [SPEAKER_00]: that you just enforce the laws against rape rather than creating a spin-off quote unquote

[01:00:54] [SPEAKER_00]: right to murder innocent life because rape itself is not being held to justice you see what I'm saying

[01:01:05] [SPEAKER_00]: too wrongs don't make a right it doesn't alleviate rape to kill the baby it doesn't

[01:01:14] [SPEAKER_00]: doesn't do anything right it might allow a woman to move forward with her life in the way that she

[01:01:25] [SPEAKER_00]: planned but how much in our life goes outside of plan anyway that we have to shift and

[01:01:35] [SPEAKER_00]: visit pivot from any way that doesn't involve an external life that we have to murder

[01:01:43] [SPEAKER_00]: in order to continue our plan now I understand rape is something that I have not experienced

[01:01:53] [SPEAKER_00]: I understand that it is awful and very very wrong but that's why there is a lot of laws

[01:02:03] [SPEAKER_00]: at least around not doing it and why we are supposed to enforce those laws and why we are supposed to

[01:02:14] [SPEAKER_00]: help victims of that crime not further make them feel hopeless of justice and carry them further

[01:02:23] [SPEAKER_00]: and further further into despair by making them feel like they have to keep the violence going

[01:02:33] [SPEAKER_00]: which is killing their babies which half of the genetic code of that infant

[01:02:43] [SPEAKER_00]: regardless of the rape that occurred is the woman herself so you know I guess the argument

[01:02:52] [SPEAKER_00]: in my body my choice but you know you don't escape the fact that you're choosing to kill a part

[01:03:01] [SPEAKER_00]: you're choosing to you think that writing the wrong is killing something

[01:03:09] [SPEAKER_00]: that is a product of the thing that really did happen to you and as awful as that is

[01:03:17] [SPEAKER_00]: killing it is not going to eradicate it from happening it doesn't stop it from happening

[01:03:27] [SPEAKER_00]: so what I see about a lot of American Americans is that they see all these laws

[01:03:35] [SPEAKER_00]: that aren't being properly enforced by our leaders people who we have elected

[01:03:43] [SPEAKER_00]: to serve us and to bring about justice and civility and all of these things they're supposed to

[01:03:53] [SPEAKER_00]: create environments and systems that work for the people they serve they are failing and instead

[01:04:02] [SPEAKER_00]: of holding those people accountable to their oaths which they took to serve us people just

[01:04:14] [SPEAKER_00]: they make more laws and I don't understand it for the life of me why they make more laws or they think

[01:04:19] [SPEAKER_00]: that we need to change the law that already sought to hold these people accountable to the real

[01:04:31] [SPEAKER_00]: problem so why wouldn't you think to go after the rapists instead of murder the innocent life

[01:04:39] [SPEAKER_00]: and help the female even if she does choose abortion deal with the actual thing and bring her

[01:04:48] [SPEAKER_00]: her victimizer the criminal to justice and let her know that there is actual justice in this world why

[01:04:56] [SPEAKER_00]: wouldn't you do that why wouldn't that be the thought not to mention all of the

[01:05:05] [SPEAKER_00]: incest which is the other thing that people talk about that abortion allows to persist as well

[01:05:12] [SPEAKER_00]: because all it takes is some father taking his abused daughter who he's impregnated to an abortion

[01:05:20] [SPEAKER_00]: clinic and claiming that she got knocked out by some boy that she met and continuing to abuse her

[01:05:26] [SPEAKER_00]: that's all it takes you allow people who are seeking to victimize to persist

[01:05:36] [SPEAKER_00]: because no matter what you think you're protecting you're not not when you seek to keep expanding

[01:05:42] [SPEAKER_00]: upon the law for these individual nuances instead of actually holding the law that was written

[01:05:52] [SPEAKER_00]: as it was written to its fullest point which the way our constitution is written is the most

[01:06:00] [SPEAKER_00]: fair and equal thing that you can imagine so when you learn it and when you learn how it was written

[01:06:08] [SPEAKER_00]: why it was written that way you then realize that you don't need to expand upon it you just have to

[01:06:17] [SPEAKER_00]: actually enforce it you have to restore the principles that were actually set and hold yourself as well

[01:06:27] [SPEAKER_00]: as others accountable and once everybody understands that we will have order or at least something

[01:06:36] [SPEAKER_00]: more semblancing order than we do now which is utter and complete chaos everybody is at each other's

[01:06:44] [SPEAKER_00]: throats and it doesn't matter what the opposition is males versus females blacks versus whites

[01:06:52] [SPEAKER_00]: religious people versus atheists I mean you just it's just it and it's because you have these people

[01:07:00] [SPEAKER_00]: that literally seek to destroy they are looking to dismantle without any care about who they kill

[01:07:10] [SPEAKER_00]: who they dismantle what they rip apart and they don't have a plan about how to move forward

[01:07:15] [SPEAKER_00]: either people they don't they're gonna just keep throwing shit at it and it's not their shit

[01:07:20] [SPEAKER_00]: either it's not their lives it's not their money they're not sacrificing themselves they're sacrificing

[01:07:28] [SPEAKER_00]: you and your stuff and so when I have political debates with people who are like you know

[01:07:38] [SPEAKER_00]: they talk about these things I can tell now that they have no understanding about how our constitution

[01:07:45] [SPEAKER_00]: is actually written what the actually the law says in there how far we are removed from it

[01:07:52] [SPEAKER_00]: and when they have these ideas it's like it's just too wrongs trying to make a right and it will

[01:07:58] [SPEAKER_00]: not happen folks it doesn't happen that way it doesn't what you need to go back to is the basis of

[01:08:06] [SPEAKER_00]: the law and you have to understand it the way it was written and why it was written that way and what

[01:08:13] [SPEAKER_00]: the historical relevance was of all of that and so that's what I'm seeking now and it's an epic

[01:08:21] [SPEAKER_00]: class I really hope even if even if you think I'm full of shit that you'll at least look at it

[01:08:27] [SPEAKER_00]: and make an opinion for yourself because if you're gonna have an opinion you should look

[01:08:33] [SPEAKER_00]: you should actually have an opinion there was a time in my life where I was so critical about

[01:08:38] [SPEAKER_00]: people who spoke marijuana just felt that they were you know wasting time what you know

[01:08:46] [SPEAKER_00]: when when I was just talking about the substance I told you about my mom who

[01:08:52] [SPEAKER_00]: considers it a waste of time to dip into things like that maybe but she doesn't even really look

[01:09:01] [SPEAKER_00]: she just considers it a waste of time and that's the reason why I had my position about smoking

[01:09:07] [SPEAKER_00]: marijuana was because of my mother she said you know I did it you know it didn't hurt me necessarily

[01:09:14] [SPEAKER_00]: all I can say for it is that it was a big waste of time in the end there's parts of my time

[01:09:21] [SPEAKER_00]: smoking marijuana that I've seen it be a waste of time and there's others that a majority of my

[01:09:25] [SPEAKER_00]: artwork has been created within so who's to say how much of a waste of time it was you know this

[01:09:31] [SPEAKER_00]: is art that has benefited me my entire life it has it has brought money it has allowed me to pay my

[01:09:39] [SPEAKER_00]: bills so how who's to say that that's a waste of time might it be that I'm just adopting something

[01:09:45] [SPEAKER_00]: that is an odd an odd thing to bring about something else I wouldn't say that my experience should

[01:09:57] [SPEAKER_00]: be a mainstream experience but it has profited me and it wasn't a waste of time for me and when

[01:10:02] [SPEAKER_00]: was toting my feelings from a place of not knowing from not having my own experiences I was called out

[01:10:10] [SPEAKER_00]: I was told how do you know you don't know because you've never done it how do you know how can

[01:10:17] [SPEAKER_00]: you have all these opinions from a place of not knowing and when I looked at marijuana I was like

[01:10:24] [SPEAKER_00]: well you know it's not really a jug that I even in the people that I was commensarating with about

[01:10:31] [SPEAKER_00]: it was so detrimental to people's lives that it was going to mess you up within experiencing at once

[01:10:43] [SPEAKER_00]: it wasn't like heroin or any of these other drugs that they talk about like once you do it

[01:10:47] [SPEAKER_00]: once your hooked forever which I can tell you is not the case necessarily you have to be

[01:10:54] [SPEAKER_00]: you have to be the kind of person who's really looking to I think numb your experience if you're not

[01:11:01] [SPEAKER_00]: looking for that and you're looking to just truly experience the drug I think you can

[01:11:07] [SPEAKER_00]: you cannot be claimed by it so you know I I did finally try it and and where I stand now

[01:11:19] [SPEAKER_00]: having smoked a lot of marijuana in my lifetime is that you know I don't really I don't need it

[01:11:29] [SPEAKER_00]: have a good time I enjoy it when I do it it's like it's like anything it's like a good meal it's like

[01:11:35] [SPEAKER_00]: it has it's usefulness but it's not anything that I would I would put that much in and I think

[01:11:44] [SPEAKER_00]: that's the issue is when you inappropriately put place power and when you speak from a place of

[01:11:51] [SPEAKER_00]: knowing people can only give you so much reverence for your opinion again they see you as silly

[01:12:01] [SPEAKER_00]: and I don't want to be seen as silly I might take myself too seriously and I might open my self

[01:12:08] [SPEAKER_00]: up from being bullied quite a bit I am I am a very I am a fool and I'm probably more comfortable

[01:12:17] [SPEAKER_00]: and being foolish than your average person but I do take myself seriously and I would like for the

[01:12:23] [SPEAKER_00]: things that I say to have some kind of relevance to people if nothing else to plan a seed in somebody's

[01:12:29] [SPEAKER_00]: heart for them to consider that's what all art should do it's to consider and to see how it moves you so

[01:12:38] [SPEAKER_00]: you know this this recording like all others are a diary entry to sit on your heart and for you to

[01:12:45] [SPEAKER_00]: consider but I do know that if you don't have actual experience in these things then you really don't

[01:12:55] [SPEAKER_00]: have any room to speak and if you do have room to speak it's only going to go so far and

[01:13:00] [SPEAKER_00]: all you have is your own personal experience as as the information then that's as far as it's

[01:13:15] [SPEAKER_00]: but when you're talking about politics when you're talking about you know political systems,

[01:13:22] [SPEAKER_00]: civic duties you know how to order societies you have to zoom out and you have to look at things

[01:13:28] [SPEAKER_00]: from a much wider lens and you must I think be very well educated and I just came to a point

[01:13:41] [SPEAKER_00]: where I realized I wasn't I I needed a way to communicate my actual thoughts in a way that I

[01:13:49] [SPEAKER_00]: I felt would allow people to hear them because that's the other thing it's like you know you hold these

[01:13:57] [SPEAKER_00]: opinions but most people want other people to think the way they do you know it feels good because

[01:14:05] [SPEAKER_00]: it makes you feel like you're not alone and like I started out in the beginning of this with

[01:14:11] [SPEAKER_00]: messing up Louise name, uh, bun, Louis bun or Louis bun. He's coming up he's dope I like Louis.

[01:14:25] [SPEAKER_00]: You know we're all flawed and imperfect but and we're not alone in that but but we do all have some

[01:14:33] [SPEAKER_00]: logic maybe that's the wrong word we all have truth to is still and there used to be

[01:14:46] [SPEAKER_00]: a reverence and a habit of storytelling and belaying truth down the generations

[01:14:58] [SPEAKER_00]: and I love this history of storytelling and communicating and articulating truth and each of us

[01:15:11] [SPEAKER_00]: knows it and feels it and all of that but like art if you are not skilled or if you're not

[01:15:27] [SPEAKER_00]: in and consider then it really goes no further than you and yeah it's it's good that you feel that way

[01:15:37] [SPEAKER_00]: it's good that you know how you feel sure but there's a lot of people out there there's there's

[01:15:45] [SPEAKER_00]: many souls many people that hope that they're they need hope that just need hope they have hope

[01:15:54] [SPEAKER_00]: and they need hope they need more reasons to be hopeful and if you hold all of your piece to yourself

[01:16:05] [SPEAKER_00]: I mean it's biblical you're not supposed to do that you're supposed to gift it to other people

[01:16:09] [SPEAKER_00]: you're supposed to put it on other people's hearts and that's an aim for me a big aim not only in this

[01:16:17] [SPEAKER_00]: podcast but in every way that I move from here on out in the ways that I do things I hope my piece can

[01:16:23] [SPEAKER_00]: become other people's peace and then it can just ripple out for me in this glorious

[01:16:30] [SPEAKER_00]: continuation of life life so I am investing in that on top of what I do anyway tattooing

[01:16:44] [SPEAKER_00]: now that Reiko and I are married as much as the name changes and a thing and praise God because

[01:16:50] [SPEAKER_00]: I would like to integrate him that's the other thing that I'm going to look to do is try to

[01:16:55] [SPEAKER_00]: integrate Reiko more into being a part of the tattoo world for me or my process

[01:17:02] [SPEAKER_00]: put him to task help have him help me sell my art and things like that I would love that for him

[01:17:11] [SPEAKER_00]: and for us I really need the help and I would be lying if I said that I have found it hard to

[01:17:22] [SPEAKER_00]: expand my business I feel like I have to start all over like the everything that I

[01:17:33] [SPEAKER_00]: came to understand needs to be thoroughly scrapped and re-educated and so that's why I'm doing

[01:17:40] [SPEAKER_00]: that's why I'm learning the law from the places that I know it comes from the Bible

[01:17:48] [SPEAKER_00]: and then our constitution and I'm just going to keep walking this very slow walk and make

[01:17:54] [SPEAKER_00]: sure the things that I build I build in a very integral way and if they only get so big then that's fine

[01:18:03] [SPEAKER_00]: I think that's more fair I think that's more right I think it's the only way that I am going to

[01:18:15] [SPEAKER_00]: keep my perspective where it should be balanced and relevant and with all of you because that's

[01:18:23] [SPEAKER_00]: where I want to be is with all of you I don't want to be on some pedestal up high looking down

[01:18:31] [SPEAKER_00]: I don't I fear that just as much as I fear being so low that I have to look up

[01:18:39] [SPEAKER_00]: and I also know that you can only reach down so much to try and bring people up they have to

[01:18:45] [SPEAKER_00]: really really really want the climb they have to really be willing to be uncomfortable

[01:18:53] [SPEAKER_00]: and so I'm also measured there too what I say I don't say with a lack of compassion

[01:19:00] [SPEAKER_00]: I know full well the center I am the flawed human I am I do apologize that I can't be

[01:19:09] [SPEAKER_00]: more it troubles me but I hope that hitting it from a very real and very honest point will be

[01:19:20] [SPEAKER_00]: the best thing I ever did growing from this place is late in the game as it is I hope will be

[01:19:26] [SPEAKER_00]: cool this thing well I just I have such faith in such hope that it will be I'm loving being married just

[01:19:35] [SPEAKER_00]: so everybody knows if he feels so good feel so good everybody keeps asking you feel different I'm like

[01:19:41] [SPEAKER_00]: yes yes and it's funny because they want to answer it for me they weren't going to be like no

[01:19:46] [SPEAKER_00]: it's just a piece of paper you don't feel any different I'm like no no I do I don't know what your

[01:19:52] [SPEAKER_00]: experience was but I do I I made sure I would I made sure that nothing would grow nothing would

[01:20:01] [SPEAKER_00]: happen between Rico and I as a team until that happened I cut it all off because I knew

[01:20:10] [SPEAKER_00]: that that's what God demanded of me I knew that's what was required for both of us so with God

[01:20:17] [SPEAKER_00]: man it of him he better he better make an oath and a vow and no exactly what he was buying into

[01:20:25] [SPEAKER_00]: when he did that I am so happy that I had the pre-marital counseling counseling I'm so happy

[01:20:32] [SPEAKER_00]: that I have been with my church now for like three years I'm so happy that I had each of them

[01:20:38] [SPEAKER_00]: witnessed my my marriage I'm so happy with the people that you know the few that I invited to witness

[01:20:46] [SPEAKER_00]: it it was hard for me not to invite others as I've communicated before in other podcasts

[01:20:57] [SPEAKER_00]: but I'm so grateful for this walk and for the testimony that it will give me and that's why

[01:21:05] [SPEAKER_00]: if I do like I said if I ever write a book a memoir or some kind of commentary I will adopt Amy

[01:21:12] [SPEAKER_00]: I'm really on home because I do feel that from here on out what I will be building will be

[01:21:20] [SPEAKER_00]: the culmination of me and Rico it's either going to be it's either gonna be Amy

[01:21:26] [SPEAKER_00]: Ilyano or Amico which is what my friend my friend's John and Courtney called me and Rico Amico

[01:21:33] [SPEAKER_00]: so I do like that too it's uh it's definitely what our mutual endeavors are and as you guys

[01:21:41] [SPEAKER_00]: here when you listen to this podcast Rico is a part of it he's the backbone he's the security

[01:21:47] [SPEAKER_00]: he's he's my he's my muscle I am the one that does the deets and he does the bulk I am the

[01:21:55] [SPEAKER_00]: talker he is the silent strength so whenever you sit to listen to me now I hope you understand

[01:22:03] [SPEAKER_00]: that you're also hearing Rico because I've been changed by him because he has given me so much and

[01:22:14] [SPEAKER_00]: when I wear my ring it means something it's something huge and it's something beautiful and

[01:22:21] [SPEAKER_00]: something I'm so grateful for as I am everything that has happened since I got married it just life

[01:22:30] [SPEAKER_00]: popped off man like the blessing is just reigned on me and him and all of us and it's been

[01:22:39] [SPEAKER_00]: very great and so I am just no matter how crappy life seems to get looking at it and all that we

[01:22:49] [SPEAKER_00]: have before us and all the conflict and all the crap I just have nothing but hope I have such peace

[01:22:59] [SPEAKER_00]: and I hope that this now like hour and 15 minutes of me talking can give you some peace for the

[01:23:10] [SPEAKER_00]: rest of your week or whenever you do listen to this podcast I love you listeners I have to

[01:23:17] [SPEAKER_00]: pee and I think this is a really good point to wrap this up have a blessed week a powerful week

[01:23:24] [SPEAKER_00]: I love you and make God shine on you in all the ways in every way all right listeners later

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